thrive

hi buddies! i totally disapepared, didn’t i? i am so sorry. one of the things i love about buddyslim is all that i learn about myself and my behaviors and issues and all. i see that i left here because i was busy elsewhere. thing is, i left my buds behind and didn’t want to do that! i am finding that any time i start something new, something else has to take a backseat. i am not sure how to do this time management thing so well. also, i was losing steadily unitl longest loser was done, took a week off and then never really got my heart back into it. i found that my babe was not sleeping well when i was losing and suddenly he slept better when i was chowing. i think my milk supply was down. am ever working on balance in all things physical, social, mental. i am a bit mental these days. some blueness and depression lingering about. let me tell you one thing, listening to nes while you are depressed is a bad idea - i was in the car weepong yesterday as i listened to an NPR interview about some pig farms and how the animals were being incredibly abused. then today, i wasn’t really paying attention but i kept hearing the word rape. not a happy listening experience and yet so true of the world.

ok enough of the downers. so i am fat and not especially happy for some reason BUT i am happy about my Triathlon coming up in June. I have raised nearly 1300 dollars so far (have to do 2700 to be in the program). And, I have been running, swimming, biking, and going to spin classes. Not enough for any of these yet, but i am doing it and it is very exciting! I am remembering that I can do anything if I actually try and nothing if I don’t.

Friends, I am missing you all and working on making time to stay in touch. I need to be writing and reading as well. Please know that I am thinking of you!
“What would you do if you knew you couldn’t fail?”