i am wondering if it’s time to accept me as big.
this seems to bethe ongoing reality. i am not making the necessary changes to lose weight. i just am not doing it consistently. i know that it is little steps. i even know the wteps to take. i believe i can do it. BUT i just can’t get myself to make the best choices or take the time to sleep or figure out how to get exercise in. I am lazy and stubborn about all that right now.
oh no, i don’t want to be fat. i refuse to buy bigger clothes and yet, i am not doing what it takes…
ARGH!!! so frustrated with myself!!!!!!!
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As a perfectly happy and well adjusted fat chick, I greet you.
Hi,
You know waaaay back when, my weight was about 240-250. I felt like crap, cried, avoided social interaction, the whole 9 yards. Then I happened upon a now defunct magazine called MODE. It was a mag dedicated to fat girls, I opened it every week and lo and behold I saw pictures of beautiful bouncy women modeling the latest in stylish plus-sized wear. So I began copying them. I bought A-line skirts and sweaters like in the magazine and wore them, and then one day something amazing happened. I looked in the mirror and I was pretty! Yep 250 and I thought I was gorgeous, and who could blame me, I looked like the models! So I began to go out more, met new people, tried new things. Then another miracle happened, I got on the scale a few months later and it said 220! That was 30lbs without even trying! All it took was accepting my being a big girl and treating myself right to begin the path towards being a more healthful me because once you really love yourself, you will take care of yourself.
Well of course I began other life changes, working out, eating healthier and within a year I was down to 170. I have since gained back up to almost 220 due to an injury last year, but I’m still beautiful and I still love myself and I know that with a bit of effort my weight will drop again. And if I don’t look like an underwear model after my body stops dropping pounds? so what, at least I look just like the Mode magazine models, how many girls can say that!
~Crazy
NO, you are not going to accept anything! I LOVE YOU DEB and I know you can do this!
Ok, so today is a bad day. Well, chin up hon…I am going to get you out this funk and drag you down the weightloss road if I have to.
When you are good and read to do this: mentally, physically and ready, I am so there to give you a hug and a hand.
LOVE YOU!
I here ya. Same here. But on my second last blog I talked about Oprah and she has posed some really important questions for each of us, including herself. And the most important I think…”What are you really craving? and what do you want?”
We will do this…… *hugs*
Accept yourself RIGHT NOW, but shall we chose health and healthier choices? *extends hands*
Debbie, we love you no matter what. But I do know you can and will do this when you are ready. Hugs, Kama
I agree with Jennifer, healthy choices, ok?
Debbie,
love you now, keep making better choices… keeping loving you… the changes will come.
you body is barely over giving birth… maybe you need to give things a little more time to just move slowly before really trying to push it
~tina
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You are HERE. Enough said.
*THWACK* Warning - tough love follows…
When you get through being stubborn and lazy, we will be right here to cheer you on.
You’re not a quitter Debbie. I’ve known you too long to know that. You go way back and read some of your blogs… how great you felt, how your energy was. The foods you are eating is just feeding your stubborn and lazy monster that dwells within. If you don’t want to be fat, then you have choices you have to make, but only you can make them. We can be here and help and support and hug and cry and be there for you, but in the end, it’s you that has to decide.
Crazy has some pretty good points to ponder. Think about it.
You know I love ya lady. Give my cybernephew a hug for me, will ya?
And here’s a big HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGG for you,
Shan
After having a baby Deb it takes so long to get that drive back. It is such an emotional and physical rollercoaster. Don’t be so hard on yourself when you are ready physcially and mentally at the same time you will know it.
surprise surprise, i took a big ole nap with eli when the babysitter came to play with austin and i feel like a whole new person. this sleep thing is evil for me!!! thanks for the love, kicks, thoughts, and support!
You know…I have asked myself that MANY times…and the answer for me is no. I am not judging and if someone is truly happy with themselves trhat way…great! But I am not. So I fall and get up and fall and get up and get tired and get angry and get resentful. I have times I hate myself for what Ive done…want to quit…find all the excuses you can imagine…AND THEN…I keep going. Im stubborn…dont want to let fat win this war. You will get there when you do…But if you really want it…ya gotta keep getting up. MONSTER SIZE HUGS!!!!!
Seriously….I think the sleep issue is a big reason you aren’t feelin’ it. I say at this point sleep when you can. I remember how hard it was to get enough rest when my kids were babies.
You will get there…you want it….it will happen. Take care & know we are all rootin’ for YOU!!!
