thrive

I was goofing around the other day and figured out that in the Blog options you can change the time of your blog. Whatever time it comes in is what places it on the list (before people read it and rank it). I forgot to change it back so that blog was written like tomorrow in the computer’s mind!

Good weigh in today and looking for a little more loss by tomorrow. Made same great choices yesterday - snacked on celery and carrots. Really watched what I ate and made some exercise happen. When my hubby was going out to break up the ice on our sidewalk and do some more shoveling last night, I stopped him and ran out. I told him I needed to burn some more calories! Get the exercise where you can!! I have to say, shoveling is actually quite satisfying…

Okay, want to go read the BAZILLION blogs I have missed just in the last two days. Let’s see how long Eli sleeps!

so i read a little article on yahoo a few weeks ago about negative calorie foods. the idea was that certain foods you eat take more calories to be ingested than they actually contain. My new lover, grapefruit, is one of them, celery, cabbage, are some others. I think this is where the kooky cabbage and grapefruit diets come from. I AM NOT LOOKING FOR AN EASY FIX. But, I like this idea of incorporating some of these foods into my eating. Here’s a list I found. Mainly, it all comes down to eating more fruits and veggies, right? We all know that.

Anyway, have been doing really well, but yesterday just ate too much and now facing weigh ins this week and hoping I can bring it down. I’m still feeling in munchy mood today so I HAVE to watch the grazing. I am torn between not eating enough for nursing the baby and eating too much and feeding my blubber!

Also, tried to go running this morning but is is one giant piece of ice outside. May go to the gym this morning but was trying to wait till Eli had his next round of shots (on Monday) before I take him to day care there. Hard to exercise in this weather!!!Ok, stop the excuses. Will go do some yoga before I take Austin to school. Have a great day!

This is not a blog for the faint of heart. Yes, you read right, Depends.

Off I went last night to get my run on - starting VERY slowly so that I won’t injure myself. I was thinking of Nancy as I held my core strong - was really letting my abs support me. But, try as I may the floodgates could not be held shut.

Now, this is one reason I don’t run right now - my kegel muscles are weak. I was going to what I liked to call “cooter therapy” for them at the beginning of my pregnancy. It was demoralizing, but something that needed to be done. Normally, I don’t leak unless I run, jump, or have a really big cough or sneeze. And, honestly, I don’t need depends. But, the tiny leaks and the inability to run/jump with my son were getting too much for me last year so I talked to my doc and got the referral for the therapy. Pregnancy is famous for creating this problem so I just marched on knowing that I was attempting to repair a dam with scotch tape. Now that baby is out, things have been pretty good…UNTIL….Running - yowza! What was I thinking not wearing a pad? I had forgotten!!! Well, rather than run home after a little spill over, I had to just let go of feeling like a 4 year old who wet herself and I just kept going. I decided that if i was going to do a Triathlon and maybe even a Marathon eventually I may just have to pee on myself occasionally. LOL Luckily, it wasn’t that much…

Really, though, I will keep working on my kegel exercises as they are part of your core and part of what supports your whole trunk. While they get stronger, I WILL invest in some pantyliners!!!

try an unwatched pot that you are running up and down the stairs to waiting for the whistle. i thought my tea kettle would never give me a break. actually, the plumber rang the doorbell right before the whistle. so there i was panting from running (walking) up and down the stairs.

so, why all this stair running? well, a few reasons:

1. as a stay at home mom in a VERY cold place, i can’t always get outside to exercise and i need a way to get some good cardio and fast

2. i remembered being on the Hot Rods last year and running the stairs the day before weigh in here and there as part of challenges or to help eke those pounds away

3. saturday after a great weigh in i had lunch out. not too bad but then my friend brought a plate of 3 very good goodies which i chose to eat some of each. almost all of the wonder bar. so i shoveled snow that day to compensate a little. next day ran the stairs. trying to find a balance.

4. i signed up for that TRIATHLON!!! and i think the first step has been learning to spell that word - woo hoo!!! Seriously, the first step was going to the Team in Training meeting about the program and the second step was signing up. I DID it. I am going to do this race barring great injury.

Oh, baby is calling, will write more later.

Just want to let you know i am back in my space of anything is possible. Little by little changes can happen. I may only be running the stairs for 5 minutes on teh kitchen timer or until the tea kettle boils, but some day it will be longer! It is about hope, belief that i can do anything with patience, perserverance, and support and that I WILL do it.

ok gotta go! love you all thanks to all my buddies for the constant inspiration!!!!

At least I’m telling myself that. It was the longest five minutes I’ve had in awhile. Just now I ran up and down the stairs fro 5 minutes. I set the timer on the oven and off I went. I kept wanting to quit or go see how much time was left, but I thought, nope just keep going. You’ll know when the time is up.

Who knew a kitchen timer could be a personal trainer???

Not quite sure what happened this morning - maybe it was the sunshine or few more hours of sleep last night, but I have been in a great mood this morning. Funny thing, though, I just totally binged across 30 or so miles. Stopped and got coffee and scone, friend there gave me some of his hummus to sample and bread, then stopped by, get ready for this girls, TACO BELL, then went and got another scone. This was all morning as I was running errands and driving around (had to do a return at LLBean and it’s far out). How weird to binge in a good well rested mood. A happy binge if you will…Hmmm. Not sure what to do with that. Move on and cut it out! One good thing, oh no wait, two - only got small chips at the Bell instead of full nachos (and didn’t eat the cheese - so gross!) AND did not buy the cookie dough that was tempting me at Trader Joes. So a binge, but could have been worse.

Okay, sitting in car in front of house. One more errand to run before getting kiddo number 1 from school.

HUGS

AND

HUGE BIRTHDAY HUGS FOR KAMA!!!!!!!

For Grapefruits!!!!!!

I am not sure what happened, but suddenly I am a star crossed lover with grapefruits. I have NEVER craved fruit. I love vegetables and crave greens like spinach or salads but I just eat fruit. I do not crave fruit, ever, even fruit pies or bars or…you name it. I almost always have to convince myself to eat it, especially now that it is cold.  But, this love affair with grapefruits has happened and my husband even knows and sanctions it - so it’s all good

It all started Thanksgiving when our friend who hosted us packed up some fruit salad as part of the desserts for us to take home. My kiddos needed to go home so we left before dessert. Well, of course, I sampled all of the pies, but left the fruit salad in it’s little tupperware. The next day I put some of it on a green salad and it was delicious! There were pieces of grapefruit in it and the combo was just super tasty. Now, I should have told you all first that I have NEVER liked grapefruit before and I still didn’t know that I would fall so hard for it. This was the start of me putting more fruit on salads and making dressings that were light and citrusy. Still no grapefruit on it’s own.

Then, listening carefully to my body I noticed I was having a desire for grapefruit. I actually squelched that desire not wanting to buy one or the juice and then waste it by not eating it because why would I think i liked it. Nice way to make a decision, huh? Fail before trying - nice.

Anyway, a week later i bought a grapefruit (a first) to put in a fruit salad for a brunch we ended up never having. So, here in my house, has been this lone grapefruit. The other day I listened really closely and again I heard the call - I WANTED grapefruit. So I cut it in half and my son and I tried it. And, you know what? Well, you do know - I LOVED it. So strange. So that half we ate - my son liking the first few bites then getting turned off by the sourness. I couldn’t believe the juice in those things - wow!I saved the other half and even bought another one at the store yesterday - still just one at a time…

Last night I ate my big bowl of popcorn for snack and then something really and truly amazing happened - i started craving the grapefruit! FRUIT craving?!?!? at night!?!?!? Oh my! This was just the oddest thing ever!?!?! I can’t believe that my body might actually crave something healthy like that when I feel like snacking! I was over the moon!

Maybe that old grapfruit helped me with my loss this week - that and some other good choices with the eats - red pepper snacks, smaller dinners since I am eating a bit at night, finally some movement and walking, and, of course, paying attn to sleep - even if i’m not getting it - recognizing what i need in those moments - tea if i can’t have a nap. Feeling good today and on the right track. Moving slowly but happy about that as well. While I’d like to be 20 pounds lighter than I am already I am happy with 2! i can feel more steps forward than I feel backwards and that is good.

Had a half grapefruit for b-fast, will have the other half later today - yum yum!

thank you all for your support and kicks and understanding yesterday! I am here to say that the rest of the day was so different thanks to a timely babysitter and a nap for me and eli. I was a totally different person when I woke up - happy, satiated, calm, NICE. Before nap I was grumpy, munchy, unsatisfied, and well, tired. It is just amazing to me what a huge impact sleep and lack of sleep has on both my mood and my desire to eat/behave well. I need to keep remembering that. If i can’t make myslef eat well or exercise then i at least need to go to bed early or find a way to nap. Not all days is the nap possible, but i can go to sleep earlier.

Today was a lovely day, too, so far. Was able to get out and walk ALL morning long, plus eli and i met two friends for tea. Resisted my favorite scones in town there!

my recipe for a better mood is often food, but the real ingredients are:

sleep, friends, and outdoor exercise

hugs all around. here’s hoping i can dip below the last weigh in of 176 so that i can stay in the longest loser.

this seems to bethe ongoing reality. i am not making the necessary changes to lose weight. i just am not doing it consistently. i know that it is little steps. i even know the wteps to take. i believe i can do it. BUT i just can’t get myself to make the best choices or take the time to sleep or figure out how to get exercise in. I am lazy and stubborn about all that right now.

oh no, i don’t want to be fat. i refuse to buy bigger clothes and yet, i am not doing what it takes…

ARGH!!! so frustrated with myself!!!!!!!

I just signed up for an informational meeting for a Team-in Training Triathlon event. See, for the last few years I’ve really wanted to do a Triathlon. I will be turning 40 this year and am having the need to put a goal on myself for my 40th bday. That kind of thing is new to me - goals, care about aging, etc. I am excited and INCREDIBLY nervous because now I have told people I am doing it - it’s not just in my crazy little head…

okay, gotta go get the kiddo from school, will try and read up later. i’d like to write more, too, but i’ll leave you with this - i am about to throw away some more chocolate, fudge, and choc fortune cookies. None of them are too intersting to me but if they are hear I will eventually eat them.

Woo hoo! OMG - I am sooooooo anxoius (about the triathlon not the throwing away food!)

Here’s the event - the Hyannis Triathlon

http://www.teamintraining.org/ma/firsttimehere/teamintrainingevents/summerevents/