Was going to complain, then read Anj’s blog…
Wow. Puts life into perspective, right?
Here I am being a Scrooge. A grumpy tired Mom. An annoyed person. Whatever it is I am at the moment. I am being a LifeWaster as well. Well, Life Postponer might be a better phrase. Come on, you all know it …
“I’ll do that tomorrow.”
“I’ll do that when…”
“Oh, yeah, that’s important to me, I’ll figure that out and get on that once I do that…tomorrow.”
I’ve been thinking about mortality lately. The very true fact that we are here for a limited time and that this is our chance to do, be whatever it is we want. Many of my friends’ Dads have passed on this year and it is really hitting me deeply about my own family and my own mortality. I am understanding the mid-life crisis thing I heard of so often as I was growing up. I am getting that I only have so many chances to do things and then my chances are gone. The time is limited so act now…maybe that should’ve been the title to my blog. Maybe I’ll change it. Maybe, later. See? There it is? The postponing. That bumper sticker Don’t Postpone Joy needs to be tatooed on my head. I am a constant waiter. Waiting to know what to do, to do the right thing, to do anything. Waiting until I’m not tired or busy or sick or fat or…whatever. And, you see, now I am really realizing that if you just keep waiting one day you will be gone without ever having done what it is you truly wanted.
Amazingly simple, yes? And so impossible, yes?
Should I still tell you why I was complaining of feeling like a Scrooge and Bad Mom. Christmas/Hannukah totally stress me out. I can’t get my sh*t together EVER to get thing out in the mail in time. I haven’t lived in the same state as my family since I was 18, so I always have to ship things. I am lazy and have a touch of perfectionism where I want just the right things and, so, it all gets done at the last minute or not at all. Neither of my folks really NEED or WANT anything. Maybe some photos, but even that stresses me out. And, today, I got upset and totally guilted my 3 yo about making cards for his grandparents. Nice. I really need to set up a therapy fund for the poor kid.
Am feeling pressure today of needing to get things in mail, buy more things, my photo project turned out lame, not sure if i should bake something, need to make dinner for friends who just had 3 rd baby today, bake something for husband’s work party, it snowed, my baby is a little sick and cranky this morning - really he just wanted to sleep and with the 3 yo home this morning it’s tough on the littler one. Trying to make sure they each get what they want - the dog, too, staring at me waiting for a walk. I’d like to walk, too, buddy, but eli is a little sick and it’s raining ice right now…ihave no presents yet for hubby or kids. we were trying to budget this year, but now looks like we may be okay.I’m just confused!
So that’s the complain-y stuff. Silly, I know. I am so lucky. My kids are super cute. My dog is 13 and while he will die in the next year to three which breaks my heart, I have been lucky to have him, my family is well, my husband is amazing. I am well (the pink eyes are almost gone!).
Wow. long blog. i feel less like a scrooge and less like eating sugary madness. May still have a cup of cocoa or just tea as I’m cold.
Tis the season, Fa la la la
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hehe Scrooge, grumpy old woman, grumpy old MOM mom…….yadayadayda! So glad you are appreciating the little things in life.
We all have these days. I hit the middle age thing pretty hard when I turned 30.
AND mama, that is why I like to take pictures. Crap, if I’m going to be 80 - I want pics gosh dang to remind me of what it was like back in the day.
LOVE YA!
Love you, Scrooge! LOL
Thanks for reminding me of what I DO have. I tend to forget lately. Hugs!
Oh sweetie I know how you feel! I really can’t think of anything to say other than I read this book last year called “Don’t Sweat the Small Stuff with Your Family, Simple Ways to Keep Daily Responsibilities and Household Chaos from Taking Over Your Life”. It’s a small book, but I absolutely loved it! I was feeling exactly like you are this time last year and when I finished it, I don’t know - I actually found it very useful. It’s a different kind of book - Lord knows I don’t have time to sit down and read a huge novel, but very useful. I think you might like it. If you’d like I can send you a copy. Just message me and let me know where to send it. I actually need to read mine again.
Debbie, please skooch over….let me sit “sigh”
We are so much alike. I always thought I was the Queent of “Procrastination” I feel your pain, I really do.
Sending you an extra big hug to help you through the day.
Hugs
Jane
Hmmmm….sounds like someone needs to put their foot down and say that she needs time for herself. Need to bake something for hubby’s work? Have his stop and pick something up on the way in. Have to bake for someone’s third baby? Give them a handmade coupon for a free night (or even few hours) of babysitting (after the New Year of course). Gotta walk the dog? Tie him to the treadmill…LMAO! Just kidding…I was just on a roll.
LOLOL Anj about the dog.
Okay missy, I’m going to say a few things here that prolly sound harsh, but please know they come from my heart because I CARE about you. Anj has a great point. There’s such a thing as the word “No” or “Help out”. Example… with my workload this week, no way am I going to have my house clean and a grand meal prepared for my sister and her family’s arrival Friday night. So I’m buying a gourmet frozen lasagna to pop in the oven, and I called Sis and asked her to bring the garlic toast and dessert. Wa La! All I have to do is throw together a salad and smile a whole bunch. lol
Now here comes the harsh part. Debbie, you are on a vicious vicious sugar high that has got you spiraling out of control. It is the reason for your moodiness, your tireds, and your stress. In fact, I would gamble my last buck on it being the ONLY culprit to all this in your life. I KNOW. Remember? I own the t-shirt. Here’s a few hard facts for ya:
Unstable blood glucose. Eating too much sugar causes our blood sugars to go haywire. When the sugar levels in our blood fluctuate, they lead us to feeling fatigue and exhaustion. (get that? FATIGUE AND EXHAUSTION). Headaches and mood swings are also apparent when the blood glucose is unstable. (put this next sentence in BOLD TYPE) Moreover, the more sugar we take in, the more unbalanced our blood glucose becomes, and the more sugar our body craves in order to fix the imbalance it perceives.
Nutrients. Consuming sugar makes the hunger pangs go away. That is why we are often told not to eat sweets before a main meal. When we take in too much sugar, we do not feel the need to eat food that contains more of the important nutrients that our body needs, such as vitamins, iron, calcium and magnesium. There is a difference between feeling full after every meal and gaining the nutrition you need from every meal.
Stress. When we eat too much sugar, we go on a sugar high because of the energy boost we get from the sugar consumption. But this sugar high is only temporary; our energy level takes a plunge afterwards. When this happens, the body releases hormones to bring the sugar level in our blood back to optimum level, and these hormones include the stress hormones: adrenaline, cortisol and epinephrine. These hormones make us irritable and stressed out. (see? IRRITABLE AND STRESSED OUT)
Cognition. Too much sugar in the body also affects our mind’s ability to learn and recognize. (didn’t you just say you were confused?)
Debbie, you are a beautiful person that has the WORLD going for you, and you are doing all this to yourself. STOP IT! Get rid of all sugar in your house and fill with the good stuff and just flippen DO IT! And I dare ya to come back and tell me you don’t feel better in 3 days. In fact, I dare ya to tell me you don’t feel better within 24 hours…
Okay……. *prays that I haven’t pissed her off* You know I love ya girlie. I felt I could say these things because… after all… I “AM” the cyber auntie.
Big huggggggggggggggggs,
Shan
Awww, that Shanna is just one of a kind
Ditto to everything you she said.
I tried to comment earlier, and nothing would go…so frustrating.
I’m thinking of you and your family, and praying things go better for you Debbie. You are so loved!!!
Hugs
Jane
OMG….I am about to blow a fuse here, please check your moderation folder Debbie. BuddySlim just won’t let me comment:(
You need to shop online and search for coupon codes, I never pay for shipping and usually get like 10-20% off. It is the BEST when sending gifts out of town.
I am a lot like you about waiting…and waiting still…and then if something cant be done perfectly….it just wont do!! It can be kinda paralyzing really. Hope you get all of your last minute things done soon..and I know you will. Take care of that little tiny sweetie and the bigger little sweetie. And you too!!
You’re no Scrooge Debbie!!!! Give yourself a break girlie. You;ve your hands full, and you’re doing the typical “SuperMom” thing where you’re trying to get everything done by yourself and you’re trying to please everyone (which is impossible by the way).
Deep breaths now. Enjoy that tea… that’s a very Irish thing to do… make a mug of tea when you’re feeling overwhelmed! In my house at home the kettle’s never empty or cold… teas are being made every 10 minutes!! Hope Eli’s feeling a bit better today.
Im a Waiter and a Life Waster…been strugging with that myself. all we can do is try harder and make things happen.
BTW…if you get that Tat on your head, make sure it goes on backwards so you can read it in the mirror!