i won’t do it!
i almost wrote that i can’t, but that would be lying. I just won’t commit to what i need to do to make the weight come off. it’s no mystery for me what i need to do. i haven’t tried everything and failed, i’m just not trying consistently, and i’m incredibly resistant to do so. i don’t want to give up the cookies, the mussins, the snacks at night. i want to join the strong challenge, but i can’t even (WON’T) come up with something i intend to do…wow. good to recognize this stubborness i am having right now. things are well here with the two babes, but i guess i am having that i don’t want to give this or that up attitude because i am already doing alot of that which is totally good by me, but exhausting and taxing nonetheless. the food is returning to status of reward, soother, entitlement, the thing i get to do alone. i was thinking how people share their hobbies and interests with their kids. well, mine seems to be food…my son was even a chef for Halloween. i hope i havne’t handed down my eating struggles to him - i tried not to do that and it seems to have happenend anyway…is that just how parenting goes? we really have no control 
a bit of a tangent there…
so, here are the things i won’t do:
set a goal
go to the gym
stop night snacking for good
stop the cookies here and there
stop the breads/muffins here or there
here is what i will do: let me try this
i already gave up dairy, coffee, chocolate, pnut butter for the last 2.5 weeks to see if it helped eli’s belly. i am slowly reintriducing them. i DID do this even though i resisted it. i have had tiny bits of eash (except coffee).
i still can’t type it…i won’t do it. therefore i won’t lose weight. hmm. i seem to be in a deadlock with myself…nice.
let’s see…
i WILL drink more water
i WILL walk everyday except Wednesday or if it is truly to cold to go out with the baby
i WILL go to the gym once a week
i WILL continue to snack at night while watching my portions. I think i need to start here.
I WILL have one cookie/muffin etc a day if I have walked and controlled my snacking the night before. maybe that is the way to go. i definitely can’t set myself up in the I CAN’T have something mode - it just won’t work for me especially right now when i am wanting ease and comfort from food.
long windy blog…
if you made it this far - thanks!
ps- email and boosters still crash me if i try and send them out - sorry!!! i can read anything. often i have the baby on my arm so typing is really hard. if ever you need me - please tell me!
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Debbie, I think for me things I won’t do are things are secretly crave to do… but sometimes I am so deadly tired and overwhelmed that I do other things that are not smart. Are you in that place too?
You just had a baby and must be very sleep deprived and tired. You are still a trooper with walking and going to the gym.
Anyway, water, walking, watching TV with controlled snacks (three W) sound like a good, doable plan. Go three W, go!
Hey Debbie! Good to see you! Ok, I’m liking both list. One word: REAL! You are being real and I respect that! Go girl, do your thing and you will make it.
Love ya!
hey girl…you can do it. I know you can!
Hey Debbie!!! missed you lots.
Ok….I’m so glad you are recognizing what you can and what your not ready to do. I think that is the first step in losing weight.
It seems when we take all the goodies away, we tend to stray. That happens to me. I go on a binge of chocolate and chips when I haven’t had them for awhile.
So I think your idea is AWESOME!!! do what you can, and when your ready to tackle the other issues, you will succeed!!!
Like Tatiana said, walking, drinking water, and going to the gym deserves a HIGH FIVE!!!
You take care my friend…kiss the babies for me
Hugs
Jane
rebellious like me… I can’t have a list of don’ts… or they become automatic “do’s” for me! I just have guidelines that I try to stay within and it’s been working out pretty well.
good luck!
I totally feel you on this….I felt like giving up this weekend, like I know what I have to do but I just don’t want to do it. Each day is a new day and we can start over. We’re in this for the long haul. We are going to have bad weekends and bad days but we can’t stop.
Debbie, sometimes I feel the way you just had the courage to say ! You summed it all up in a nutshell ! We all know what we have to do heck, I bet we each could write an expert book on weight loss ! You are so right it is an internal struggle ! Good luck with your struggle girl ! Hugs, Kimmi
Ok, you know that I have been on this road for a long time, getting up and falling many, many times! What worked for me this LAST TIME, is that I chose to work on only ONE thing at a time. Some goals came easier than others, for example, it became easy to drink all my water and make water a habit, it also became easy to exercise 5 days a week (although in the last two weeks I’ve only exercised 4 days per week), it became a habit to track my food—WHAT I HAVE BEEN STUCK ON IN THE LAST MONTH is eating two pieces of fruit per day—which is WHY I have not added a new healthy habit to my list—not until I master the fruit thing!
Sooooooooooooooo, I highly recommend you give this a try, so as to not feel overwhelmed! I know you love your babies, but I have been told my many that being the mom to one is one thing, but being a mom to two or more is an entirely different ball game, so give yourself a break and hang in there! I have NO DOUBT WHATSOEVER that you will get your head screwed on right in due time!!
I miss seeing you often on the site, but I love reading when you do blog!!
Hang in there my friend, hang in there!
Hey Debbie-
I think if this works best for you now-DO IT! I remember what it was like to have little ones, so I think at this point this is a doable, realistic plan. Much continued success to ya! Take care!
Debbie…. you have your hands full at the minute. You’re exhausted. Stop trying to be Super-Mum” and give yourself a bit of a break.
Try to change one thing this week. Dont go over board now… just one thing. Whether its an extra snack in the day you dont really need, or maybe a 5-10 minute walk you can manage with the kids…. just something small. And then at the end of the week, give yourself a pat on the back for a good job done.
Have you tried only having your meals when the kids have theirs? It might help with the needless snacking.
I agree with what was said above..you are very real! Right now you may not see there is a will where you have assigned a wont BUT I have been around you long enough to know, you always come back around. you are a winner and a fighter.
Great Blog. I think of you often and wonder how you are. I seem to be on a roller coaster too. But at least it is more of a maintaining game right now instead of gaining. It is tough to balance kids, life and food. It takes a lot of discipline.
Debbie, one step at a time. You just had a baby, so give yourself a break. I like your lists, whether you see it or not, you are moving towards where you want to be. This is not a race, you get there when it is your time. You can do it lady. Hugs, Kama
Debbie you sound like you have great goals. Just take one goal at first and work on that till you can do every day. How’s the baby by the way?