always in a hurry/always waiting
so that’s how i feel. even now as i write this i am feeling that sense of HURRY!!! Must rush before baby wakes up, before i need to go back to school, because i need to be paying bills or running errands, or just because. My state of being ever since having my first kid has been no hurried. I want to write all about this but am finding i can’t give it the time because i want to get to the other topic, too, the waiting. i can feel this rush in my blood and bones. certainly doesn’t help when it comes to eating - that, too, is a rush. got to get it done and got to do things before the kids melt down - that seems to be the combo. where did the meandering, wandering me go? the one who likes to get lost in order to find new ways? maybe that’s why tv time at night is so “special” once i get there it is slow. a like not having been there the last few nights, though.
i want to slow down. i love yoga and meditation retreats and places that ooze slowness and quiet and peace. perhaps because i am sooooo busy. i feel busy and yet i feel lazy as there are always so many things i am not doing. and i do spend time just sitting around as well - staring out the window - literally!
maybe that’s how the waiting comes into play. i ahve really been noticing my waiting for mentality lately. it’s always there, but right now it is laughable. i was having the “i’ll start eating better, sleeping more, and not watching as much nightly tv when i’m not so tired” - um - DUH??? first, that makes me tired, second i have kids - i’m going to be tired for awhile now so why wait? the waiting effects everything i do…oh, i’m feeling hurried so i’m losing my train of thought…
maybe i’ll just go pay the bills.
i am doing well with not randomly eating on my upset stomach (we all ahve a slight bug here). i tend to eat when i don’t feel well - even if it’s a tummy issue. so it feels good to make better choices for my bod. i will eat as i need to keep fueled for nursing, but i won’t eat to feel better. it doens’t work anyway 
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hey girl….breathe…slow down…breathe
Oh wow… I can sense the tone of temporary insanity creeping into your blog. I seconnd what aggal73 said…. Breath girlie… breath!!!
I’m right there with Lyssa too. Deep breaths honey. Some anxiety there maybe? May be a good thing to talk to the good old doc about. Is there a yoga class that you can take the boys to and let someone else watch them for an hour while you get back to you? Sorry you aren’t feeling well. (((Debbie))) (returning the several that you have given me over the past week) Thanks for that!
Wow… sounds like you need a mental health day like Anj got. I get the same feelings like you’re having when things begin to pile up on me. That’s when I have to MAKE myself sit down, make a list, prioritize, and once I do that I feel more in control.
Wish I could just whisk you away and both of us go on a long hike somewhere in some beautiful places we’ve never seen before. Wouldn’t that be fun?
Hang in the Deb. With the new baby and everything, it takes some adjusting to new routines.
Big HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGS,
Shan
I think it is all part of being a Mommy the second time around. It takes a lot more juggling of everything else in our lives to find the balance we once had. You will find it I promise.
You sound like me. My daughter is grown. I feel like my life is such a rush I don’t have time to breathe. Hang in there. I’m sure we will find the balance. Hugs,Kama
Promise to come back and read this then really comment!
A baby definalty changes things. I find that I am in a hurry all the time too. Its like “how much can i do while he sleeps for this hour” LOL
Yup. It sounds like you’re the mother of more than one child—my friend sounds just as rattled as you!! She told me that “it’s one thing to have one kid—it’s manageable, but two are overwhelming.” I wouldn’t know because I only have one—but that’s because I know that’s all I can handle! Look, the truth of the matter is that our society is HURRIED and because there are so many things to do and not enough hours in the day, we oftentimes feel “lazy” and inadequate. BABY steps my friend—I am finding that ONE thing on a daily basis is the ONLY way to keep your sanity!! Hang in there! I would offer to babysit so you can have some down time, but we are so far away from eachother—wait….is there someone who can stop by for 15 to 20 minutes so you can meditate? Dunno….just an idea!
Way to go not chosing food to comfort yourself. THANK YOU for the reminder to slow down and enjoy life. Keep up the positive choices. Hope you feel better Debbie. *hugs*