i strayed and i paid, you don’t want to know what i weighed…
Well, a few days off Buddy Slim certainly changes a girl. Now, i know that’s true.
I’m going to go ahead and offer my apologies to my HOT RODs because I am definitely not helping the cause this week. I even thought of quitting, isn’t that interesting? Not doing so well, so quit. That’s going to take me far in life, yes? But here I am, extra few pounds and all. I need to get going again, but I really am in that downslide…
For those who don’t know me, I went to my High School Reunion this weekend. It was fabulous and fun and even corrective - I got to see people that I hadn’t seen in 20 years and see that all that crazy high school shit I did is gone and forgotten and okay. Another place for me to be okay with myself. THat’s good, those places are good for me.
In the traveling I did pretty well with the eating, not great, but pretty good until Sunday on the way home. Couldn’t find anything to eat in the airport that was veggie friendly so I finally got a piece of pizza. That’s not so bad, but it was one of those giant pieces. Then when I got home, hubby ordered Chinese food. Healthy chinese, but take out nonetheless which was part of the original problem (eating out). So Sunday became a bit of a bust. And this was all compounded by a lack of exercise, too, due to the busy day Saturday and the rainy weather. I walked around and was on my feet and strolled the airport, but again, not the usual.
So then Monday we ate more chinese, followed by dinner out at IKEA and I just saw that nonstop eater returning. The “I don’t care” attitude started coming back over me. So last night I was eating 2 bowls of popcorn and staying up late. And today I ate cookie dough!!!!!!! I hadn’t done that since I started here and there I was really back to where I started.
I heard this thing from a junkie on a TV show that was blasting in the airport. She was talking about getting clean and then using again. She said that the first day you think, “oh, no big deal, it’s just this one time.” then the next day, you say to yourself, “well, it’s only 2 days, i can still be fine.” then on day 3, you pretty much say, “what the h_ll, and just do it again.” that was me today and i didn’t really like it.
so here, i am day 3 of being back on the stuff of overeating, not choosing what i really want, and just not being in line with myself. Instead of throwing in the towel and saying, “what the h_ll” I am going to say “here i am - ready to go again!” this week may be a bust as the computer just came back so I’ve sorely behind here. Also, the hubby is leaving for a 3 day biz trip so my exercise will be down as will any free time. I’m going to do what i can and offer myself a hand up and a little compassion and patience as well as a swift kick in the rear!
i missed you all!!!! Buddy Slim helps me soooooooo much! I’m embarrassed by the fall, but I’m so glad to be back! Love you all!
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This will be all right if you learn from it! 3 days is better than three weeks, three months, or three years. Forgive yourself and hop back on this wagon. Have a good evening.
Johnboy has a VERY good point! And I totally agree with him - FORGIVE YOURSELF.
And oh… one more thing. You are NOT quitting the HOT RODS!!
Some c’mon Ma**hole.
(A-yuh - I called you a Ma**hole) Hahaha - JK girl. I’m glad you’re back. 
You got back on the diet trail, and THAT is NOTHING to be embarrased about! Be PROUD that you made the right choice to come back instead of giving up! Way to go!!
Girl it’s all gravy! We all get off the path and it is really hard to stay on it! But I’m so happy and proud that you decided to get back on track instead of just going down the wrong side of things! Keep up the good work! Get back on track and you have all of us here as your support!
You’re only human and you can’t expect perfection. I can SADLY identify with the junkie you heard on TV, it is so true and that’s how I’ve felt these last few weeks…and the scale of course, never fails to slap you around, it’s what we choose to do with the information the scale gives us that makes us or breaks us.
Glad you had a great time at your HS reunion, I’ve never been to mine…although I think our 20th is coming up in about 3 and a half years…good, I still have time to shape up, specially since the boy I had a crush on since Jr. High, promises to be my date….so long as our respective spouses don’t mind—LOL!!
Hey ditto to what everyone else has said! I did the same thing in TEXAS and boy am I paying for it! But we know what to do and how to do it! So here’s to the both of us getting back on track! And don’t ever QUIT!!!!!!!
Whats this??? “hands on hips” my buddy giving up>??? I don’t think so. nooooooooooo way. Your way to strong and motivated to get the job done. So you cheated a little…we’ve all done that. Since you recognize how easy it is to fall back into those bad habits is proof positive you CAN DO IT!! So, its a new day…your working on the new you!! Cmon…lets go..one day at a time!!! Love ya!!
You SHOULDN’T be embarrassed by the fall. It’s when you STAY down and give up that’s embarrassing. You are making a conscious choice NOT to do that. So from me… HIGH FIVERS!
The fact that you thought about this and blogged about it shows that you are making progress. We have a lifetime of bad bad habits and junk in our heads and bodies to clean out, and it won’t happen overnight. It’s a process and one that will take time.
I for one and very proud of you for not letting this last weekend get the better of you and letting it defeat you. Instead, it is teaching you something and pushing you to do better.
WELL DONE on the postive attitude. I’m a huge advocate of attitude and a lot of people on this site know my words… if you ain’t got attitude, then you are starting out behind. You dear, definately have attitude today. *big grin*
Huggggggggggggs,
Shan
Ok, you had a good time, now be glad for that and just get right back on. Those pounds will come off and I know you can do it! Hugs, Kama
