i’m in a bad relationship…
with food. or with myself. or with both.
Don’t have much time right now and stayed up too late last night so I’m fuzzy. Two steps forward and one step back.
But this idea keeps coming to me - not such a new one, but felt compelled to write it out…food is there to nourish, enliven, give strength, love (?), promote health, and generally be good for you and yet i just abuse the heck out if it. I feel all crave-y and desperate - I HAVE TO HAVE IT (well, of course we need it to survive, but more than that basic need). I can get possessive and obsessive about it. It just feels like I am such a bad partner in this relationship - not a whole lot of respect going on for this life-giving stuff!
There’s that fantasy aspect, too (get your minds out of the gutter, i don’t mean 9 1/2 weeks), but I mean the allure of the food or my distorted expectations of it. You know how we project onto our partners whatever we want, or we put them on a pedestal, or have these ideas that they can be it all, well, I do that with food sometimes…I look to it to be perfect, the thing I need right then and there to make me feel better or happy or energized or comforted or loved. I have these expectations that that bowl of popcorn or cookie dough or bag of snack food will be sooooooo good and usually, really, it’s not all that.
I just want a healthier relationship filled with respect and balance…
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Exactly! My mother used to tell me that with alcohol, you can abstain, but we have to eat to live. How do we get so obsessed with eating junky foods? Some days are fine and then other days I want to eat all day. I am so sick of this pattern. Thank you, hon, now at least I don’t seem so all alone with this craziness. Hugs, Marge
I sure understand what you are saying. Its like this crazy “love affair” with food. My husband used to tell me when we first met…Honey I eat to live I don’t LIVE to EAT!!! How crazy is that.
We just have to fall “in love” with the healthy foods. I was doing pretty good there for a while, I’m committed to starting over and making it this time. Cmon..take my hand…TOGETHER we can and WILL do it!!
Wow! I couldn’t have said it better myself. Thank you for sharing it! We eat to live not the other way around. I know it’s hard but food doesn’t fill all of our voids. We have to fill them with other things that are healthier for us.
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